Dear Justin

I miss your handsome face and your big hugs.  I miss your laugh and your smart mouth and I miss talking about stupid things.  I miss your reassuring presence and bigness.  I miss your movie lines.  I miss your Saturday pancakes and I miss Deadliest Catch.  I miss your scratchy feet, do you miss my cold ones?  I miss when we go to bed and you tuck my cold feet into your warm legs and hold my cold hands.  I miss your nose whistle when you sleep.  I miss texting you.  I miss kissing you and I miss your big hugs.  I miss all your shenanigans and I miss how much you love dogs.  I miss your logic.  I wish you were just sleeping on the couch and I could just go wake you up to go to bed.  I miss how you line up all your tools biggest to smallest.  I miss how you can't stop buying big shelves and other storage solutions for the garage.  I miss talking to you on long road trips and I miss your sweaty hugs after you go to the gym.  I miss VH1's Best 100 countdowns and I miss when you make fun of me.  I miss that day you and Drew laid down on the benches in Old Navy while you were waiting for me and I feel bad about that day I didn't share my granola bar with you.  I miss putting my face in your neck when we hug.  I can still feel what your warm neck  feels like against my cheek and whenever I think about it I hold really still so that feeling wont go away. I worry you I haven't told you all of this enough and that you don't know how much I love you.  I keep you in my heart all the time, please keep me in yours too.  I imagine myself there when I can't get to sleep at night.  I picture myself all snug in your heart, behind your ACUs and your body armor.   I am so proud of you and I am so grateful for all these things I miss because these are all the things I look forward to when you come home.  Please take care of yourself because you are so so precious to me and Drew.
Love,
Me